What is Love? What is Pride? Is Pride the absence of Love? Or is Love the absence of Pride? Are we naturally proud? Or are we naturally loving? Can we love when we are proud? Can we be proud when we are in love?

So many questions, asked since the beginning of time, yet no one has the definite and absolute answer.

Is there an answer? I think, or I hope, there is. It may not be universal, it may not be absolute, but it is the one I believe in.

Every one of us, when we are born, is naturally loving. If nurtured and reared in a perfect environment, every one of us can become reflection of God. We do not, however, live in a perfect environment. Thus, our natural loving nature is replaced by pride as we grow up. It is our natural response to the cruel and competitive world that we live in.

Love is the absence of pride. It is the state where we start to think more of others than of ourselves. It is when we put the well-being of others before ours. It is doing what is best for them even if it means being hurt, left, and/or humiliated.

As we mature, we may or may not revert to our naturally loving selves. Sometimes, we may even confuse pride as "love" (i.e., love for ourselves). Despite the numerous role models on love that we have throughout history, we decide to ignore them in our actions even though we invoke them non-sparingly in our words. As long as we think of our well-being before the well-being of others, we will never experience love at its truest, finest, and purest form.

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud." - 1 Corinthians 13:4
There are a lot of reasons why I love watching movies. Aside from the usual entertainment value it provides, it also allows me to learn so many things that I do not have to experience myself.  It also gives me an opportunity to see different sides of a story, enabling me to enhance my ability to look at the broader picture.

One of the most important lessons I learned from a movie is summarized in my favorite quotation: "there is no right or wrong, only people who fight for what they believe in". I got it  from Samurai X (Rurouni Kenshin), the Movie, wherein one of the characters acknowledged the complexity of the situations faced by different sides during war. Applying the same logic in our everyday life, it is really easy to judge people depending on what they do, without thinking of the situation or story that that person has. If we start to think about or empathize with that person, we will realize where that person is coming from and we will have better understanding and appreciation of the things that he does.
"What if when you woke up, you didn't know the difference between the dream world, and the real world?" - Morpheus, the Matrix

It also allows me to realize many things that I will not normally think about. As such, giving me greater appreciation of the life and reality I have at the present.
"Faith is universal. Our specific methods for understanding it are arbitrary. Some of us pray to Jesus, some us go to Mecca, some of us study subatomic particles. In the end we are all just searching for truth, that which is greater than ourselves." - Vittoria, Angels & Demons

Lastly, I consider movies, along with modern-day books, as necessary supplements to our faith and understanding of the greatest mystery of all - life. Supplements, I say, since our primary literary source is, of course, the Bible (or whatever holy book you may believe in). Necessary, since modern-day literary pieces echoes the universal truths contained in our Bible provided in a setting that we can understand and relate to.
May 29, 2010
10:36 PM

It happened just like the way I imagined it. No fancy dress, no music playing in the background. Just me and her, doing the most favorite thing that we do - talking.

Maraming nagtatanong sa kin kung bakit hindi ko pa sya tinatanong. Ang lagi kong sagot - naghihintay pa ako ng tamang oras. Kailan nga ba ang tamang oras? Sa tinagal-tagal ko nang walang girlfriend, ano pa nga ba ang hinihintay ko? Mahirap maintindihan, mahirap maipaliwanag, pero ang tamang panahon ay hindi napaplano, hindi napaghahandaan.

Walang plano, walang paghahanda - just one simple and honest moment.

Sa gitna ng aming pag-uusap, sa likod ng aking isip, sa kaibuturan ng aking puso, aking napagtanto: ito na ang hinihintay ko. Masarap talagang maramdaman na pagkatapos ng mahabang panahon, natagpuan ko na ang matagal ko nang hinahanap. Yung taong pwede kong makausap ng walang pagpapanggap. Yung taong tanggap ako at tanggap ko. Yung taong nagiging inspirasyon ko para abutin ang mga pangarap ko.

At sa gabing ito, habang kami ay nag-uusap, nabuo ang lakas ng loob upang itanong ang matagal ko nang hinihintay. Hindi ko namalayan, isang tahimik na ngiti pala ang nabuo sa aking labi. Isang ngiti na hindi nakalusot sa matalas nyang mga mata. Walang kamalay-malay, pilit nyang tinanong kung ano ang nasa isip ko. Nakakatuwa, sa isang payak na pagtaas ng dulo ng aking mga labi, alam na kagad nya na mayroon akong nais sabihin. Ito na talaga ang hinahanap kong pagkakataon.

Ang pagkakataon kung saan ang puso at isipan namin ay pinag-isa ng aming matapat at taimtim na pag-uusap. Ang pagkakataon na kahit walang sabihin, may pinag-uusapan. Ang pagkakataon na sa isang tingin, sa isang ngiti, sa isang yakap, mapagsasama ang dalawang magkahiwalay na indibidwal at nagiging isa.

Tinanong ko na sya. At tinanong ulit. Sumagot sya.

Sa ngayon, hindi na bago kung ano ang sinagot nya. Ngunit higit sa salitang binitawan, hindi hamak na mas mahalaga ang pagtatagpo at unawaan ng dalawang damdaming iisang bulong ang isinisigaw. Mahal kita.