No matter how hard I try, every effort that I exert seems to fail. Is it because I am not trying hard enough? Or is it because I am not putting my whole heart in it? The real question is: should I? In this obscure world with no simple blacks and whites, it is so easy to be swallowed by the vagueness of these gray areas. The worst thing is, I try to rationalize the irrational, while empathizing the logical. If only this endeavor is as simple as picking a fruit from a tree, I would not be having all these sleepless nights and unfulfilled mornings…